A Little Crazy is O.K. {Thought Provoking Thursday}

by Michelle Acker on July 31, 2013

in Learning the Art of Living,Living is Learning,Thought Provoking

(Hi – I’m Meredith.  Michelle, the beautiful hostess of Though Provoking Thursday, invited me to share with you today. 🙂  )

 

You didn’t think that the Christian life was boring, did you?  Because I hate to disappoint you and destroy any illusions you may have held about the reality of  a life that is spent actively seeking the will of the Creator of the Universe.

It is NOT boring.

The Alpengeist -- SUPER CRAZY roller coaster at Busch Gardens in Williamsburg, VA.

 

In fact – – the moment you become a Christian, you have basically signed over control of your life to His leading.  (If you’re doing it the right way.  I’m usually not.)  Jesus himself claimed “in this life you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world!” (John 16:33, emphasis mine.)

So when we have our ducks in a row, and our plans perfected and the unexpected or feared happens, we find hope and and strength from Paul’s words in Romans chapter 8, that all things are working together for our good, according to HIS purposes.  (Romans 8:28, paraphrased.)

Hindsight becomes a gift as looking back reveals His fingerprints over everything in our lives.  Many times those instances where we thought we would never recover from the heartbreak, couldn’t possibly build ourselves back up after professional defeat or personal loss, are the times when we can see His hand at work the most.

After years of following Him together, my husband and I have grown familiar with the way He works, the way He leads and directs.  My husband will have thoughts that don’t go away, that plague him until he thinks he is going crazy. With me, the Lord grants divine peace through crazy circumstances and changes, or the opposite – gut-wrenching conviction that something is just wrong.

I know.  You want examples, don’t you?

Since my husband became a Christian at the age of  29, he has been to Thailand twice, moved across the country from California to Maine, got married to a local Maine girl just after being there for a year, and then faced suppressed memories head-on with the help of a loving therapist, which allowed him to grow into the amazing man of faith that he is today.

Since I became a Christian at the age of 21, I have stopped being depressed (therefore losing my angry poetic voice), moved to a town I had never been to for teaching position, met the man I would marry the day before I started my teaching career  (and God told me THAT DAY that I was going to marry him.  But that’s another story. 🙂  ), endured the hardest engagement that I could ever have imagined, got married only to feel the bottom drop out 6 weeks later when my husband had a nervous breakdown (remember that therapist I mentioned in the previous paragraph?), but through it ALL I knew that God was with me.  Even when I had no idea how to deal with my   our new reality, I knew that He could see me, that He had a plan, even though it looked nothing like what I had envisioned for myself.

One of my songs, Declare it to the World, speaks of this exact scenario:

Even when my heart is laden down
And I can’t get up off of the ground
Even then I know that You can see me
Through it all I know that You are with me
For Your love is faithful Lord
and Your mercies go before me

Another song, What it All Comes Down To,  mentions that disconnect between our dreams and plans and His plans, and whether we are going to trust Him in everything.   ” ‘Cause my dreams don’t look at all like this reality  . . .”

Now, after eleven years of marriage, two boys (ages 7 and 3), a failed church plant and many, many, many different apartments/homes, we are keenly listening for His input into our life.   It has been a roller coaster ride equal to The Alpengeist at Busch Gardens in Williamsburg, VA.  (See pictured, above.  Credit for photo: Allyn Fratkin).   Crazy. Non-stop. Unexpected.

 

Our next chapter is being written as we speak  and it is definitely a page-turner.  It involves moving trucks, saying goodbye to all much that is familiar, starting over in a new place, and being in the prime position for dreams that have barely seen the light of day to be realized.

NONE of this would be happening without the Lord’s leading.  I am far too timid, too cautious and too afraid to ever attempt dreaming this big, or changing our lives this much.

How’s that for boring?

 

 

 

{ 5 comments… read them below or add one }

Amy Jung August 1, 2013 at 6:10 AM

I so needed to read this today. My life is being turned upside down right now and…it was good to read about another person’s life and how God has guided through it. Helps me remember that He has guided before and will continue to. Sometimes I waver in remembering this…on a daily basis. Thanks!

Meredith August 1, 2013 at 6:40 AM

Oh Amy — I am thrilled that our adventure (the butterflies in the stomach of right now, and the agony of defeat of other seasons, and the amazing joy that somehow exists through it all) has helped encourage in your own “waiting place.”

*hugs*
It is painful, and difficult to wait for it all to make sense. And sometimes, even on the other side of it, it STILL doesn’t make sense. But our God is faithful, and His ways are (thankfully) not OUR ways. 🙂

I will be praying for you. *hugs*

Lyli @3-D Lessons for Life August 1, 2013 at 8:26 AM

Meredith, thank you for sharing your story with us. I am thankful for men like your husband who have served so sacrificially. I am glad to hear that you are both in a place of healing and restoration. Our marriage went through a tough time last year due, and we are thankful for His mercy. What an encouraging post for those who are struggling! There is hope on the other side. 🙂

Meredith August 1, 2013 at 12:04 PM

I have often thought of sharing our story– in fact, at some point, I really do need to write it down. BUT – it is that fine line of sharing OUR truth, and hurting the people we love in that sharing, without intending to.

Does that make sense?
Thank you for you kind words. 🙂

Hazel Moon August 1, 2013 at 5:46 PM

Learning to trust through all the ups and downs is difficult at times. Grabbing onto peace and not letting go does help us through those merry-go-round excursions. Lovely post and God bless you and your family.

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